WYLDER by Kristina Weaver

Author:Kristina Weaver [Weaver, Kristina]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-08-15T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Nine

Lyon

I felt her slide out of bed hours ago, and despite the need surging in me to go to her and bring her back, I just stay where I am and silently watch from between my lashes as she stares out through the night, her profile turned just so and catching the moonlight.

It halos her head, the white mass of straight tresses gleaming and sparkling. I shouldn’t be anywhere near her right now, and trust me, I tried to stay away. I really did, but after hour two in my room, pacing like a caged animal, I couldn’t stay away a minute longer.

Not that I had a right to come in here, but I needed to. I miss Leila so much I don’t know how I have lived without her for this long. Eight years. Eight miserable, lonely years have passed, and not one day went by when I didn’t think about her.

It’s not easy walking away from the only person tethering you to the ground at a time when it felt like my sanity was a foregone conclusion, but I did it because when Bear and Wolf came to me, I knew the life I was about to embark on had no place in it for her.

She wouldn’t be safe, and besides, I was filled so full of hate I was terrified that I couldn’t love anymore. It was hard, harder than anything I have ever had to do, then or since, but I did it because I believed that she was better off.

After Sparrow died, I clung to Leila, her soft body the only reprieve I had from the grief and the gut-eating guilt I felt for not answering my phone the day before she died.

I missed her call by ten minutes at most and didn’t call back because I was late to fetch Leila from the hospital and I had a class to get to. To this day, I still wonder what would have happened if I’d called back.

Maybe we could have made plans to meet up and she wouldn’t have gone out with that Harrison kid. Maybe she would have anyway and was only calling to complain about Mom again.

I don’t know, but it was crippling to think of after we got the call and they told us Sparrow was gone.

Leila was there for me through it all, only leaving me when Mika got so bad the doctors said they should prepare for the worst. That too was not easy because I wanted to be with her, there for her, but I was also resentful that I couldn’t have all of her when I was falling apart.

Sparrow was not just my sister. She was my best friend. We partied together, grew up together, shared secrets, and snuck whiskey in the treehouse together when we were teens.

And then she was just gone, as if she never existed. I couldn’t deal with it, and the drinking, well, it helped a little, so I used it to numb the pain.

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